iVYRAVE

Damn with Jackle that was like a 1 man tennis game. 

What's bizarre with me is that, to help me sleep I play podcasts and interviews from my ipod. When I play Gorillaz themed stuff all my dreams suddenly become Gorillaz themed however if I play NiGHTS themed or other themed stuff it doesn't work.

Unfortunately there's a crap internet connection here so I'll just leave my dream code instead

7900-2656-2105

Although still a WiP I have big plans for this town, so much so that I cannot contain my excitement, no going to spoil anything but by mid-November you shall see

That would be cool, I'm still waiting for an Android port as well

With me it's two things.

The first thing with me is getting to sleep in the first place.

When I was 9 I lost my grandmother, the night after she died I could have sworn I saw her wandering about our spare room, for years afterwards I refused to go in there at night time and struggled to sleep in darkness, constantly seeing shadows and hearing footsteps. Ever since I was 11 or so I've had to have a nightlight (or some substitute such as a phone or even my laptop on worse nights) in my room but that still that's not good enough, if I even think the words 'Grandma Evelyn' ,'Granddad George' or even 'Ebony' (i.e. the names of deceased loved ones) I start to panic, if there's no on except me in the house at a late night I find myself shaking uncontrollably and hyper ventilating. 

The only way I stop it was by playing something through speakers which were placed underneath my pillow, this could be from podcasts to a constant loop of all version of ai-di-la, Even watching ridiculously long youtube videos seems to help as it acts as a distraction from these thoughts. This seems to help and all but I feel I am getting too old to be afraid of such things but I cannot stop it.

Second thing is waking up. I'm one of those awkward people who has to be allergic to dust, meaning hayfever-like reactions all year long, pollen or no pollen. This allergy is so bad that I wake up at random times just to have a sneezing fit and it takes me roughly 3 hours to get back to sleep. Hopefully this is going to end soon a we're replacing some of the furniture in my room and I am seeing my doctor on Monday.